job update

I returned to the national news desk. I think it's a good compromise for now- I am still learning and giving myself time to enhance my language capability. I have been so hell bent on writing that I was having trouble working with my limitations. I could write about stuff related to the english-speaking population here (and most likely will push myself to) but the learning for me is stymied by only-english. It's kind of sad to know that there are certain topics you can write about without any new angle other than the recycled one you pitch to you editor as "new"; and it will get published because people are that eager for any point of entry, any "inside" info on the topic- feels like taking advantage of a person's desperation and my mind wanders to "false need" and "ideological imperialism". I'm being vague, sorry. I am thinking about a decades-old topic and trying to flip it so it's interesting enough to me to pursue. I dont feel too enthusiastic about bs-writing. Probably a good time to drop the idea and pick up another one. Maybe tomorrow, optimism will replace my cynicism.