Changing climates

The sun's been shining and I have ventured away from home a bit- to the local strip mall. Driving feels different because my reflexes have changed- I don't trust other driver to follow road rules. The only good thing is that I drive alot slower for now. This week I venture into the city to run errands and to begin to reconnect with old colleagues and friends.

By the way, thanks for the phone calls. I will call soon.

I very much have the feeling that this place is deserted despite the fact that everyone was outside enjoying their reprieve from a wintery blast this past week. I find myself searching for the vendors, people on the sidewalks, betel nut spittle, the incessant background noise of honking cars...I took my dog for a walk near home. Normally it's a peaceful walk for me as I talk to him and think or plan, but this particular time I felt a little scared. What solitude looks like has changed temporarily I think.

These days life is in a holding pattern again.