April Fool's Day

'sup folks? Life at work is very good, knock on wood. Life all around is going well. It's been a very long time since I have felt so calm and even keel. I don't know if I ever really felt this balanced before moving here. I always wanted a 'TLC' (The Learning Channel) existence. I would watch those shows- A Wedding Story, A Makeover Story, A Baby Story- and wonder how they found so many stable people for those shows. I am still quite, mmm, expressive, but the undercurrent is light, lots of warm light.

You guys should really check out Riverbend. I love reading it. I tried to add the link to the links list but it's not working for some reason. The link within the text of my last post is though, so check it out.

I did take pics of me and I realise the way I look has changed,at least to me- my hairline is receding, my nose is bigger, and my eyes loook moony- i'm morphing into a fictional old man. The kind of old man you imagine shoos kids from his doorstep in fairy tales.

I am learning so much about how people live in this city. So many secrets are kept from those people most care about and told to everyone else. I had a long conversation with a new friend about some secrets we know. She filled in some of the blanks for me and I kind of felt just sad to know more. I think I felt sad because people ruin their lives for the dumbest reasons. I have tripped many times and landed on my head and eventually figure how to get my feet back on the ground. The secret-life-person is making the kind of mistake you have to just let people make and hope for the best. We are not close by any stretch of the imagination but I have walked down that road once,and it didnt feel good. I cringe to think that this person is whistling while they walk down this dreary road, feeling only the sun through the branches of dead trees.