strength

" Love consists in this: that two solitudes protect and touch and greet each other" -Rilke

that sentiment reflects how i am existing right now. I have lost someone very close to me and it's been exactly a month now. I am reveling in my solitude. I guess it's not exactly solitude when i am constantly talking to the person in my mind or thinking about her. maybe the sentiment relates more to how i am interacting with living people who are close to me and who know my mind.

i am lucky that i do not have regrets or guilt about how i handled my relationship to her.

there are people though that i miss so deeply. one is a friend that i knew seven years ago. an amazing human being, one of the strongest people i have ever known. that person was living with lupus at the time. we have exchanged post and e-mail infrequently, but i think of my friend most days. i hope my friend is still well.