it's been almost a year

tidbit: after i came home from india last summer i went to see my gp for a check up. at that time she told me that my hemoglobin level was higher than the normal range. she said such a phenomenon was possible due to prolonged exposure to pollution and often occurred in smokers. a few weeks ago she retested my hemoglobin level and found that it is now in the normal range. the only major change being a drastic improvement in the pollution level. I am mildly shocked that mumbai was so polluted as to catalyze a physical reaction. I spoke to k about my the reaction and he said hemoglobin levels increase when your body is not getting enough oxygen.

it's also been a year since the death. i think about her daily. i was afraid to go to india and be in the spaces she had inhabited. i went to india for a wedding for about 48 hours ( travelling mishaps shortened the trip considerably). I slept in her room for four hours. the energy in the room brought to mind peace and vitality- the feeling i have when i watch the ocean for hours. i slept peacefully as she bid goodnight and blessings to me and my sister.